When times are hard and you've lost sight of who you are - don't worry. Don't beat yourself up over it. It happens. And don't try to justify the situation either. You don't have to.
Give yourself the chance to wallow in the sweet misery.
Acknowledge it. Face it. Get to know it. Embrace it, even. There's no shame in that.
Then, take a deep breath and move on.
To better things or a changed perspective - you decide.